Back in late April, I witnessed a young lady die and it hit home very hard. Due to the circumstances, I almost felt as if I was seeing myself in this young person’s shoes. Early in the morning, the young lady went to work, as she did everyday Monday thru Friday. But by mid afternoon, she was gone.
As a ICU/ED/trauma nurse of 16+ years, I have seen hundreds of people die. I have learned how to deal with those deaths very well. But this one young lady’s death shook me to the core. Within minutes of her passing, I thought back to the chemo room, when my chemo buddy and I worked on my life list. I had over 1300 things that I wanted to experience in the time I had left on this earth. And now, I had been given 6 more years cancer free and I had done only 5 things! Pathetic. Perhaps a slap in the face to my chemo buddy and others, who had unfortunately succumb to cancer and it’s grip.
I couldn’t sleep. I couldn’t breathe. So what’s a woman to do? Why, wake up your husband of course! Even at 2 AM. I told him that I needed to change some things, and that my life was not going in the direction I wanted. I’m sure he thought I was having my period or had watched some late night inspirational infomercial. But I had changed.
Within a month, I knew he had listened. He had surprised me and designed a blog for me, as a belated Mother’s Day gift. He was (and is) my greatest supporter. He has made me business cards, tries to surprise me with activities from my list, and asks everyday, “What’s next?” Great man.
And so the journey has begun. I have done over 20 things in the last 6 months. Some small, some big. But it’s a start.
In reflecting over the past 2 weeks, I have decided on my word for 2012. A simple, little word to keep me in check, as I strive to accomplish my goals and suck the marrow out of all that this wonderful life has to offer.
Intentional. I want to live with intention.
A month ago, I read an excerpt from a former staffer of Oprah Winfrey’s. He said that when he worked with her, nothing she did was an accident. Everything was intentional. That struck a chord with me. She’s done ok with being intentional. Right?
I want to be intentional in accomplishing my 39 things I want to do before I turn 39 on November 20, 2012.
I want to be intentional and accomplish over 100 more additional things on my life list.
I want to be intentional about my health goals. No excuses. Do it.
I want to be intentional about cultivating my relationships with my family, friends, and neighbors.
I want to be intentional about recording my family’s stories.
I want to be intentional about homemaking and creating an organized life.
I want to be intentional about modeling a heart of service to my family and others.
I want to be intentional about exploring this world.
I want to be intentional about saying no.
I want to be intentional about being grateful.
I want to be intentional about how I spend my time.
I want to be intentional about surrounding myself with people who build me up, encourage me, and challenge me to be a better person.
I want to be intentional about my personal relationship with my heavenly Father.
I want to be intentional about laughing everyday no matter the circumstances.
I have already intentionally made some changes. I went to part time at work this past month, with a plan to hopefully quit next summer. I stepped down as a girl scout leader, room mom, and team mom for the first time in 8 years. And you know what? I’m so happy with those decisions. Those activities and relationships brought me great joy, but they have all run their course, and I’m done. And I’m beyond happy with those decisions.
A new path is being forged.
I would like to encourage you to adopt a word for this coming year. Please feel free to join in on a class I’m going to take, called One Little Word by Ali in 2012. I have a feeling that this word is going to teach me a lot this year, and I look forward to the growth.
If you already know your word, I would love to hear it!
Blessings my friends – JennyTweet