Mom, You have a problem so listen up!
While I was silent on this blog, I still spent plenty of time on other social media sites – possibly more than ever before. First thing in the morning, I would read a couple of my favorite blogs. I would check my personal Facebook site and respond to messages and ‘like’ the pictures and status updates of my friends from all walks of life. I’m a people pleaser and very easily pleased, so I tend to like pretty much everything. This has annoyed people because Facebook then decided to display your likes/comments for all the world to see.
Before Facebook, I would have had my quiet time, write in my journal, and headed out the door to exercise before the kids woke up. Instead I’ve been more concerned with what a casual acquaintance has voiced about current events, parenting styles, or social injustices. I voiced that I was tired of reading about it on status updates, yet I continued to spend time clicking on links that only led to me being unproductive and ultimately frustrated at myself for wasting time. Political and religious debates have brought out the passion in people like never before. This spirit of the unknown and fear of the future that election years can bring only heightened the uneasy feeling in my stomach and soul.
I love stories and seeing pictures of my friend’s families, but at what expense?
Do I care more if you like my status this morning than sitting at the breakfast table coloring with Samantha?
Do I care more about clicking on the shared link of another child being neglected or bullied than curling up on the couch and seeking to meet the needs of my own children?
Do I really think you care if I didn’t receive enough ketchup packets from a drive thru? Yes, that was a very important status update from me.
Do the status updates of my friend’s multiple vacations leave me with a spirit of comparison or am I content and grateful enough with what God has provided me?
What if I asked one of my four kids a question about their life every time I was stopped at a red light instead of checking my notifications and messages on my phone?
If I received an email from God saying He had a blog update for me, a specific word just for me, would I click on it as quickly as some of my favorite daily must reads?
What difference could I have made this past year with the time that I wasted? What more could I have done or been?
I could die tomorrow. So what legacy am I leaving behind?
So I’m enrolling in detox. I won’t be checking my personal Facebook page until I’m 40. I’m taking a 383 day break. My guess is that my home, health, and soul will greatly benefit from this journey.
Bottom line: Relationships take time and I have been wasteful of the time I have had this past year. I want to be more intentional with my time. Even if it is just to sit and be still.
I want less of me.
I want more of Him.
I want more of them.
Life is good and messy. Today I thank you for letting me throw my messy out on this blog.
Blessings sweet friends,
I believe this change will also allow me to be a better friend to you here. I desire to be timely in my responses and questions to you. And I value your friendship and I apologize to anyone that I have hurt in an untimely response. I will also continue the Learn with Jenny Facebook page to update when blog posts have been published and share positive links from my internet friends. You can also email me at firstname.lastname@example.orgTweet