Currently I am wishing I could freeze time. My four kids are at such fun ages and are all at really good spots in their lives. Jeff and I are soaking it in.
Currently I am laughing a lot and scratching my head as I parent a teenager, two tweens, and one toddler. On this week’s shopping list, I had a note from Rebecca that she needed tampax, eye makeup remover, and contact lens solution. Jeff then texted me that Sam was out of overnight diapers. I briefly wondered if having siblings so spread out is going to be something my children won’t remember favorably when they are older. Then a moment follows where the love is just so intense during an after school tickle fight and it relieves my unspoken fears.
Currently we are big fans of a certain little one who is playing t-ball.
Currently I am taking a photography and videography class through The Define School. My brain is stretching, growing, and absorbing. I’m dreaming of making many videos in the future. You can bet it will include dancing.
Currently I am shooting pictures at different angles. I am resorting to standing on beds, sprawling out on the floor in the middle of the library, and climbing an annoying Little League fence. I will say that climbing that fence in my hospital scrubs might have left fellow baseball parents scratching their heads wondering if I had lost my marbles. Perhaps.
Currently I am devouring two books, Bread & Wine: A Love Letter to Life Around the Table with Recipes and Quitter: Closing the Gap Between Your Day Job & Your Dream Job.
Currently I am loving my chalkboard frame in the dining room. I love to change the board with different bible verses, quotes, love notes, etc. Often these verses serve as gentle reminders to me, more than my children.
Currently, I am choosing to embrace the ordinary, savor it, and seek out the blessings from within. With a renewed perspective, the ordinary is transforming into the extraordinary. In this picture, I could have become frustrated that I couldn’t go on the water slides with the older three kids. Instead, I got to sit and watch the excitement of the older kids while holding this shivering 3 year old. I even heard a “You’re the best mom,” not just once, but twice. Had I not adopted this new frame of mind, I might have been too grumpy or distracted to have heard her tiny voice.
Currently, I am anticipating having three kids in the double digits club. Emily turns ten next week and just got braces last week. Three kids in braces. So another reason to take a deep breath and hold kids when that want to be held, kiss owies that need to be kissed, and make the time to actively listen when given the chance.
Currently, I am thankful. Eight years ago today I was told that I was cancer free. I might be the only American who loves April 15th – Tax Day. Despite a tough year of scares and medicine, cancer is not in my body. I have an obligation to not take that privilege and blessing for granted. I have a husband to love and cherish, children to raise to love God and others, and a calling for a much grander purpose. I refuse to merely breathe and exist.
Currently I am in a terrific place, merely because I chose to stop, reposition my feet and attitude, and move forward. Thankful for a husband, parents, children, sister, friends, and a precious heavenly Father for loving me through my transition with unending love and undeserving grace.
Currently I am loving the soft sound of tapping fingers, as I am back to writing on this blog. And am beyond thankful for your warm welcome back.
In celebration of being cancer free, will you do me the honor of telling one person that you are grateful for them? That would be my greatest gift. Let’s spread some love.
Blessings sweet friends,